Gratitude and Grief
- Courtney Hutson

- Dec 12, 2025
- 2 min read
Today feels tender.
It’s my birthday, and I find myself holding two truths at once… deep gratitude and quiet grief.
I am so grateful for where I am in my life right now. For the growth, the strength, the love I can feel around me and the clarity that has come from choosing myself again and again. I am grateful for the version of me that survived, softened and kept going even when it would have been easier to stop. I am grateful for the new chapter unfoldin;, one rooted in intention, self-trust and alignment.
And yet, alongside that gratitude, there is grief.
Grief for the people who are no longer walking beside me.
Grief for relationships that couldn’t come with me as I evolved.
Grief for past versions of myself… the ones who didn’t know what I know now, who carried more than they should have, who learned through loss instead of ease.
This grief doesn’t cancel out my joy. It doesn’t make this day less meaningful. It simply reminds me that growth often requires letting go and letting go can hurt, even when it’s necessary.
For a long time people had me believing you had to choose between gratitude or grief. That feeling one meant betraying the other. But today, I know better. Both can exist. Both deserve space. Both are sacred.
Gratitude honors where I am.
Grief honors where I’ve been.
And together, they tell the full truth of becoming.
If you’re reading this and feeling the same; proud of how far you’ve come, yet aching for what or who you had to release… know that you are not broken. You are human. You are evolving. You are allowed to celebrate and mourn in the same breath.
Today, I allow myself to feel it all.
And that, in itself, feels like a gift.



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